My Stories

Today

Was beautiful, I spend the past 4 hours with my amazing girlfriend and cuddled with her the whole time. Oh, and made her play Xbox lol. She makes me happy :)

We pretty much started talking right at the start of December and we still are. She is amazing and was so different than any other girl I liked before. At first I wasn’t close emotionally to her but now I don’t want her to leave me. I like her…a lot. She makes me smile like an idiot all the time and happy like a child. She’s so beautiful and cute. I could hold her hands and kiss her every day (i pretty much do that already :p ) I am starting to trust her and not thinking bad when she hangs out with other guys. We hangout at least every two days and I met her parents already. They are amazing and funny. She still has to meet my parents and I don’t know what I should think about that. I don’t think they will like the 3 year age difference but to be honest I don’t care. I will date her and not them. But I know they will love her :)

Something from our conversation <3

“Aww tommy. you are too sweet I’m literally the happiest person sinse I met you,you’re so just….your basically my perfect guy”

Diet

I am going on a sugar diet. I eat to much junk and that will stop. I will start eating healthy and eat more fruits even though I hate most of them. I will also stop drinking soda. I want to do my body good and give it the best stuff

Just spending another day at home

I wish I had a license so I could go somewhere. Anywhere than just staying at home. I am 19 almost and staying home is my daily life. It won’t change until summer cause that’s when my family will support me but before that not. Just for that I will flunk my drivers test a couple times so they have to drive me to college if I stay here. People ask me why I’d do that. My answer is cause I won’t need it after shool since I wont have many friends left so fuck it

Amazing night

I don’t know how to explain how happy I am. I could start out with that I’m still smiling or that I’m happy as fuck. So her mom picked me up at like 7 and drove us to the mall. We walked around for a little, went to zumiez, hollister some smelly store and ended up in dicks sporting good. We walked around in it, played golf. Than she hit me with a shoe lmao. We found the camping section in the corner of the store with chairs and sat down. She took the giant one and I took like a baby one. I though I would break it but it lasted to whole time. We just sitting there and just talked about things, lots of things. About people and problems. Some how we came too feet and she told me how she broke two of her toes. Btw Her feet are tiny and cute ahdhdksbeic. I asked her if she wanted to see the things i wrote about her and she said yah, so after she was done reading all the things i ever wrote about her she was like blushing and was smiling, what made me happy :3 so we somehow ended up on the ground trying to have our feet like when they meditate but that somewhat failed on my site. Than these guys walk by and just look at us weird. So we started laughing and just walked away awkwardly. After that we got cookies and walked around for a little more. Than we saw people we knew and they had to be awkward about us hanging out. So than her mom picked us up again and drove me home. We hold hands and it was cuteeeeee hehakdndksndbdjsnsn. Today was amazing, i could look in her eyes for hours without getting bored, shes just amazingly amazing but what I love the must is that we don’t have to kiss or anything like that to have a great time. We just have it. Well im going to bed, night

I want to change my style

I want to change into someone new. I want to look new and feel good about myself. I love when people tell me i smell and look good. I don’t really show it but It makes me really happy and kinda makes my day. I want to buy more things to wear, like shoes and sweaters and stuff like that. I just want to look at myself for once I think good about myself

Cute Relationship

I want a cute relationship, like a really cute one. A relationship where i’m cute and shes pretty, so we can be pretty cute. Like a relationship where i can sit with her somewhere, my arm around her and watch the sun slowly go down until its gone. Or sit on a bench and just watch the day pass by. I want to fall asleep with her on a couch, my arm around her and her head on my chest. Just laying there and think about the little things that makes us happy. I want that cute relationship where we both have something matching like a hat or a shirt just to be goofs. I want to go with her to an aquarium and watch all the cute fishys. I want to take long awkward walks on the beach with her. I want to keep her warm when shes cold, not only with a jacket or my arms but with a nice hot coco. Yeah, i want all that and more

Whats a Dad?

How is it to have a dad? How would my life be if my dad would have been there for me? How does it feel to have a male next to me? How does it feel when a dad say “Come son, we will go and do something fun!” How does it feel when a dad gives you the ‘talk’. How does it feel seeing parents be happy together? How does it feel to have a son and father day? How does it feel to see you mother smiling at a someone. How does it feel? Please tell me, how does it feel to have a father that loves you and cares about you?

I wonder how it feels to have that family i see with most people a mom….and a dad

The Park

I went longboarding at the park for the first time today. Not gonna lie but it was uber fun. It has a lots of walk ways aka i can skate on it. It also has this amazing hill. BEST. THING. EVER ON A LONGBOARD. I went down it like 4 times, i can learn sliding on that. Probable going to the park everytime i go longboard now if i dont have work :)

My Wish

I just wish that somebody would like me more than a friend, someone that cares about me. Someone that thinks about me everyday, even just for a little. That would make me happy but you know, im a faggot and unattractive 

They say everyone finds somebody but im wondering, why does it take so much pain and time? Why? 

My Apex 37 

Today one month ago i got my new Apex 37 carbon longboard. I pretty much ride it ever day. If i look at myself when i first got it and now i changed a lot in style. I learned some new tricks that i dont know the name off them but i know they are tricks :p It is one amazing board and it looks pretty sick too. Its funny how after just 30min longboarding i am sweating like crazy, i get sweat in my mouth, eyes and my boxers get wet lololol tmi, i know. Its a true sport that takes all my energy out of me.  

New Beginning

“Let me introduce myself, I’m all smiles. You may know me as a former ‘most love only last a while.’ Pessimistic, so realistic, you get the picture.” Its from one of my favorite songs, i listen to it pretty much everyday just to get a smile on myself. Well anyways, i made this blog just to get back to the old way i had my other blog, talking about my daily life if i have time. I will pretty much try to write something everyday. 

I got of from work today so i will probable will work on freestyle tricks on my longboard. Hopefully next week i will get my new helmet and my red springs what will allow me to go way faster on my board down hill. Also, next week school starts, fuck! I still have to get everything and some new shoes. I get payed tomorrow but i dont think i will check it this week. Well anyways im out for now ttyl